Sunday Reflections: "Do not be Afraid."

"Do not be afraid."
"Accept the Holy Spirit and let it guide you."

No matter how strong you are, there is always that something that makes you afraid. But if you look at the situation, you can also say that no matter how weak and afraid you are, there will always be that something that you're good at. I am always afraid... of failing, of making mistakes, of not meeting expectations, of not being good enough... the list goes on. But if there is one thing that life keeps on reminding me for the past year (and months), it's not to be afraid and drop whatever fear I have. Sometimes, I get to remind myself and motivate myself to be more confident and be stronger. Sometimes though, the weakling in me gets into my head and hits my heart, until I tell myself "I cannot do it," "What if...blah blah blah" (insert long list of excuses and reasons here). 

This is the reason why today's homily in the Church affects me. The priest kept on reminding us not to be afraid and be more faithful because Jesus gave the Holy Spirit and Peace to us. The moment father (the priest) was telling stories and explaining the homily a while ago, I felt somehow close to Tatay God. Months from now, the most dreadful and life-changing event in my life this year will come, and I will be fooling myself if I don't admit that I am really really really nervous and afraid. I feel like I am not ready for it and I feel like I need more energies and confidence to take it. I need prayer warriors and positive people around me. But as most people would say, motivation does not come from the people around you or to anything around you, it comes from you.

Another thing that hit me while listening to the homily: Jesus is such a great teacher. He was able to come up with stories just for the people (no matter what age group and no matter what differences they have) understand his teachings. I know making use of stories will be a great help in my own classes, but I need more wisdom and creative juices on how to use them. While listening to the homily, I was thinking, sana kaya ko rin magturo ng ganon kagaling at kaayos.

Note to self: Too much money has already been let out, too much efforts and sleepless nights, too much sacrifices and too much energies. Too much... just too much. You were able to get THIS FAR, this is definitely NOT the time to give up. No to giving up. 

DROP THE FEAR, TRUST GOD.